I was addicted to porn for 37 years and by the grace of God the chains were broke at the age of 44. At the age of 7 I looked at a pornography magazine for the first time on 9th street in Boca Raton, Florida. Kids from the neighborhood had found the magazines from their father’s stash.
I remember it like it was yesterday.
At the age of 8 I was molested by a stranger who worked at a graveyard; my friend Troy and I were molested by the same person and that was the day I kept everything I did (whether it was good or bad) a secret.
As life went on I got deeper into my addiction to pornography. It was just another secret to live with.
I joined the Navy at the age of 19 and I was sent to San Diego and Los Angeles CA. I was already deep into my addiction for 12 years and I would hangout at the magazine stores where I would go into the booths that had porn video’s you could play for 25¢. I already watched my dad’s video stash and I already was into phone sex at a young age.
Then I was sent overseas and that’s where I bought prostitutes. Something I never thought I would do… As years went on I lost relationships and jobs due to porn and that still wasn’t rock bottom for me until recently.
September 6, 2013 was my rock bottom moment.
During my years of living life with porn, prostitutes and drugs I thought I couldn’t ever stop looking at porn. I thought the only way out is through suicide. Today I’m in recovery, but I’m facing incarceration for what I did during the addiction years. Yes I’ve lost my house, car, job, reputation and soon I’ll be a convicted felon. I am so blessed to not live that life anymore because I now go to church, and I love my family, and myself for the first time in my life.
I hope that my testimony will be able to help someone out there that is going through what I’ve gone through. I shortened my testimony so I apologize because I would need a novel to finish it.
I promised God that I have a mission for the little time I have left to help other people who are going through what I have and if I can help one or a thousand I have done what I always was supposed to do.
God bless everyone and God is good.
