August 21, 2012

Addicted since age 6, went to jail

I was first introduced to pornography when I was 6 years old. I was over at my grandparents house and my uncle still lived at home with them. He had a massive porn stash and viewed it all day long. He shared it with my brother and me when my older brother first started asking about girls. He continued to show it to us every time we visited until I was almost 14. I have been addicted,to pornography since I was little. I am now 31. When I was in high school I just wanted to be with girls and didn’t care too much about all the relationship stuff.

That behavior continued until I renewed my faith in Christ. Once that happened I still wasn’t out of the hole of pornography yet, nor the consequences for sexual behaviors. I met an amazing woman whom I married and have been married to for almost ten years, but shortly after we began dating and while I was still at the beginning of a much more Christian centered life I was sent to jail.

I went to jail because of the girls I fooled around with and did not care to know all about her turned out to be a minor when I was in my early twenties. My wife lovingly supported and continued loving even thought we weren’t married at the time.

I still battle with urges to view pornography and sometimes I slip. Pornography is way more addicting than any drug I have tried or drink I have drunken. I am thankful to my savior for making it possible for me to be forgiven for my transgressions.

The fact of the matter is porn is a sham. It makes a mockery of the sanctity that is the sexual relationship between a man and a woman. It ruins views of the opposite sex and makes young men and women use on another for physical means only.

If you are addicted there is help and if you are stuck in the “business” there are ways out. Respect yourselves and others by not viewing or supporting the porn industry. It ruins lives.

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