porn in libraries
January 21, 2018

Ever since I first saw porn at the library, I sought it out

Ever since I first saw pornography at the library, I sought it out.

My parents tried everything they could to prevent my access, but I always found a way. I watched it habitually until I got married and then I tried to quit.

I found myself watching again and when my wife found out, even though I saw how much it hurt her, I still didn’t stop. It almost led to divorce several times.

I eventually went to sexaholics anonymous because I realized I couldn’t stop of my own will. I’ve been clean now for a year and my marriage and family relationships have vastly improved.

I’m so sorry for the 15+ years I wasted in shame of my double life, how I lied to my parents and hurt them, my infidelity to my wife through pornography and the turmoil it put our marriage and our children through. I wish I’d never seen it that day and I’m dismayed that even now libraries don’t have safeguards in place to protect children.

National Center on Sexual Exploitation

Founded in 1962, the National Center on Sexual Exploitation (NCOSE) is a nonpartisan and nonsectarian non-profit and the leading national organization exposing the links between all forms of sexual exploitation such as child sexual abuse, prostitution, sex trafficking and the public health harms of pornography.

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