January 25, 2012

I’m just a kid and I’m addicted to porn

I’m still in high school and I have been addicted to porn for the last four years.  It started with curiosity, at first I just wanted to know what it was and now I’m scared to be alone. Now I can’t even look at a girl without terrible thoughts coming into my mind.  I’m scared when I walk around school or at the mall even when I’m with friends.

I still looked at porn and then after about a year I started sexting(sending dirty messages to people), sexting made me start wanting to have sex.  Then after months of this I lost my closest friend because I did some inappropriate things to her that we both thought we wanted, and we just fell away.

And now I’m even scared to date.  Four and and a half years after my curiosity, I have finally gotten help from someone.  Just today, for the first time I have fought back against my addiction.  I started looking at porn and with help I did stop. And I know it’s not much but it IS a start and that I’m proud of.

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