It has haunted my life since that first time. I am so tired of this fight.
Pornography has haunted my life since that first time I looked at it.
Always looking for more or wondering what a specific search phrase will turn up.
Always not liking how I felt afterward.
Knowing that I wish the women I was watching had made better choices, or knew that there were better options.
Hating how it degraded them but still being fascinated by it, by what would make people want to do these things and by the sheer physiological urge and psychological addiction.
I have quit several times and always when I feel like I’m free of it, pornography will worm it’s way into my life when I’m at a weak point. I am so tired of this fight. So, so tired.
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Many individuals have made it out of this addiction. There is hope.