August 21, 2012

My husband spent $100,000 on porn

My husband is addicted to pornography and has been for almost ten years now. In the past four years he spent $100,000 on pornography and lied about it for years. He became completely disinterested in sex with me. And eventually stopped talking to me and doing things with me all together. When I was pregnant with my second I couldnt take anymore and moved back home with my mom. We have been separated for a year and a half now. He still spends the majority of his money on porn and sends little in comparison for me to take care of our two children. I know he is battling with depression and hates that he does this, but he refuses to seek help. I am in constant prayer for guidance for our situation; should I stay or go. I believe pornography is wrong in its very existence. The more I learn how women and children are forced into pornography, I am disgusted! The more I personally feel the affects of it, I realize how much it destroys. I lean on God and trust in his overall plan. I realize we all fall short. Unfortunately this is devastating.

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