As a happily married, church going father of 5, there are few who know the trauma that has affected me throughout my life. I grew up in a VERY rural area in Southern Mississippi. A country boy if you will, fishing, hunting, etc. I really looked up to my older cousins who I believed were true examples of men. I never even considered that at the age of 5 or so that the abuse they were placing on me was out of the “norm”, after all we were all exposed to porn regularly so sexuality was part of the “norm”.
I guess I was about three when my babysitter made me perform oral sex on her, sometime in that same time-frame another female cousin asked me to have sex with her. Not knowing what that was she showed me how with two teddy bears. My Uncle was always asking me “how big is your pecker now?” So by the time I was hanging out with my male cousins It was no shocker when I started to be sexually molested by them and forced to reciprocate. This all continued until the day when my uncle took my into his room and into the closet and proceeded to sodomize me. This would be one of two such events.
It was in this same home that the bathroom reader was porn mags. This event has caused countless problems in my life and has been in partial a reason that I decided to become a Social Worker and strive to help others in similar situations. May God bless those little children who are in abusive situations and may we do our part to help.
